Airpods and me!

 The space between me and airpods! No one can come inbetween...:)

And they are noise cancelling. So, that means absolutely no one can come between us.

I like this personal space. Personal doesnt mean a separate room or a house. But it can be 'mental' space where you can be yourself. Where your thoughts can just be yours. And no one can come inbetween!

Tears rolling

 When I found out my google job contract is ending. I felt pretty sad. Tears rolled when I was writing my farewell email. That I wont be part of this big organization anymore. The 'wow' factor is gone.

But God has been kind that he gave me opportunity in a company where many people can't get into even after so many rounds of interviews and so much preparation.

The 'Google' tag will remain in my profile forever. 

What things really touched me?

1. The 'badge' office where they were printing my name with 'Google' tag, I was soo anxious that I forgot my thermos there.

2. First day I took lot of photos of the decor inside and felt so thrilled. 

3. The 'Free' and 'healthy' lunch! That was another thing that made me feel special..:) Not that I am a foody but just that the kindness of a company to offer free food to both employees and contractors every day, is just 'wow'!

Amma and Pappannam

Today, I was feeding pappu annam to my lil one and I was thinking entha kammaga undo, its bland but its the Indian comfort food, Indian Pappannam!
It has got protein + carbs which are required for kids.

When I was enquiring about day cares in US, I was disappointed that they don't have Indian menu. For Indian kids who are strictly vegetarian, they give vegetables and one cheese piece. But for meat eaters, they have so many options!

I felt like opening my own day care where they have Indian food options in day care. 

'Google'…the so called 'dream' job

 Yes, I am happy I made it to 'Google'. But always felt like I am not as smart as people I work with. Esp, full timers.

I worked so hard that at some point, i had severe headaches and uncertainty as to how to resolve something.

No one asks you, 'Hey, how are you?' except for work-related. It's as if you are here to 'do their job' and you don't have a life!

Yeah, I am talking negative about 'Google'. As I felt people were 'cold', don't care types. 

The funny thing is, even if I have so many complaints, I still want to work here. As I love the 'tag', 'Google' as I feel, its the best company on earth. And don't want to leave.

Still remember the day I went to interview, the 'security' door didn't open. But, there were people coming and going 'in', and it's as if I was 'invisible' to them? They didn't care why I was staring at the 'door' trying to enter the office. No one even 'asked' me. I kind of felt the 'coldness' right there. 

After I joined, initially the people were nice. But still 'nice' to only certain extent. And then, they didn't care much after that.

Don't know if it's the 'corporate' world or I am not 'fit' here may be, I am a 'negative' person as my husband says…haha.

I am not really 'negative' but may be I am just 'sensitive', I care about small things, not 'salaries'. And yes, I did get 'excited' about their 'free lunch'. However, when no one recognizes you, you feel left out. 

Majja ni Life

 Haha..What am I writing. Why did I start my 'pen' to write what today?

Today a strange thought came to me and I thought I should write:

Today, I was warm snugged up in a comforter with my macbook, and felt that awww..warm fuzzy, and write a python script with a chai on one hand and all wrapped up in a blanket..ahh..what a feeling.

I started enjoying programming, its pretty frustrating if it doesn't work but when it works, its like you take a deep breath and relax!!!

Yes, With my Chai..!! I love my chai..

White rice!

After trying all kinds of rice, brown rice, quinoa, that rice, this rice and 24 mantra rice etc, today, I ate what I ate when I landed on earth! Yes, plain simple white rice, Well, I didnt know there are different types of rice when I was born, there was only 'One' rice. 'One' coffee.

I had tears in my eyes. As why every Indian today is deprived of 'white' rice. Its an enemy. It makes people fat.
It didnt make them fat back then?
We need to be proud of our 'white' rice as we all need the 'carbs' to survive. And whatever our ancestors have been eating, our body is built that way.

White rice- Gives taste to anything we eat as it doesnt have a 'taste' of its own, hence everything is tasty with it.
Ghee- Helps in digestion. Even today, I put 'ghee' in my daugher's 'Mac n Cheese', as that helps her digest this stuff!
Avakay - Helps fight colds and coughs. Hey, the oil used is 'sesame oil', again its great for our body!
Curd - Helps in digestion.
Pappu/Dal - High in 'Protein'. Great to fill our stomach.
Tadka - Why we put 'Tadka' ? 'Hing' helps digest the 'dal', 'Jeera' and 'Mustard' too helps balance our 'Dal's heaviness. And makes digestable and gives us the necessary nutrition.

As the years pass by, our ancient wisdom is awakening me and makes me realize I will pass this to my daughter and generations that come along!

My family! What would I do without you!

Even the most stressful day can be tolerated when I know I have a family who doesnt judge me.
The 'me' that goes to office is so different from the 'me' thats at home.
In my pajamas, thats my true self! Without makeup, just wear what I want to wear. Be myself.
Just come back home and be myself!